This weekend will be the FIRST official vacation for us (more than one night) since our honeymoon in 2009! We aren't counting the 3 moving trips, since those weren't much fun.
We are heading up to Seattle for two big reasons- (1) to go to Geocaching headquarters in Seattle and (2) to FINALLY have photos taken of us! We never did engagement photos (since we were "engaged" for a week) and my wedding photos were from my neice-in-law and were... ok.
SO EXCITED!! Elizabeth Madsen Photograophy (www.elizabethmadsenphotography.com) is doing our shoot. She is doing a "mini" session. Pretty much 30 minutes and a few prints and viola! I'm over the moon and so happy! It's a small chunk of change, but I passed up the chance last time.
That's all the big excitement going on here.
10.25.2012
10.15.2012
What a Thought (or two.. or more)!
I was going to title this "What an Ass" but there are more thoughts than that bugging me.
Last night was my weekly call with my daughter. We chatted about her playing this weekend, the usual. I told her about a dream that I had where I thought of the name "Jezebella" for the newest addition of their family since kid #5 hadn't had a name yet. Then my daughter says, "She already has a name."
EXCUSE ME?!! WHAT?!! Appearantly, step-mom had the baby on Thursday (10-11-12)!! I didn't get an email, text, nothing! I'm pretty sure that my daughter's life was afftected BIG time by this and I didn't know! UGH! I don't understand why this information doesn't get shared with me. Moving cross country, birth of children.. I don't get it. The baby's name is Sadie Jayne. Sadie is a nickname for Sarah (mom's sister) and Jayne has "Jay" in it because my ex has an ego and wants a little boy to name after him. Jay is his nickname, and so the two younger (since #4 was supposed to be the last) both have "Jay" in their names.
I was talking to my husband about the name thing and I love his reaction, "I will never name a child after me." YAY!!
As for babies for us... I started my LAST pack of bith control this month (well, for next month). Time to start getting serious on baby making! Which also means getting serious on eating better and excercising more! I even went and paid a lot of money (for me) on fancy work out shoes and made a goal to walk home from work -3.1 miles- at least 2 times a week. I did it once and that was it. Now the rainy season is here and I haven't the motivation to do it.. until now. Baby #5's announcement and the announcement of a few other pregnancies from friends REALLY has me on baby overload. I think I am going at it in a selfish way though. I want the pregnancy since my one with Kira wasn't too.. wow. It was a secret for as long as my ex would keep it one (though of course I told my sister!). I missed my wedding/baby shower. I never got to decorate a nursery. I never got all of the praise and photos and all that jazz that comes with a pregnancy. I want to be celebrated too! We have wanted a child together for a few years now. I took this past year to take a break and just enjoy us. I have some severe depression issues to deal with, and those will get taken care of at a Dr appointment I have coming up (first one in YEARS!).
So, that's my thoughts while on my break... time to focus back on work!
Last night was my weekly call with my daughter. We chatted about her playing this weekend, the usual. I told her about a dream that I had where I thought of the name "Jezebella" for the newest addition of their family since kid #5 hadn't had a name yet. Then my daughter says, "She already has a name."
EXCUSE ME?!! WHAT?!! Appearantly, step-mom had the baby on Thursday (10-11-12)!! I didn't get an email, text, nothing! I'm pretty sure that my daughter's life was afftected BIG time by this and I didn't know! UGH! I don't understand why this information doesn't get shared with me. Moving cross country, birth of children.. I don't get it. The baby's name is Sadie Jayne. Sadie is a nickname for Sarah (mom's sister) and Jayne has "Jay" in it because my ex has an ego and wants a little boy to name after him. Jay is his nickname, and so the two younger (since #4 was supposed to be the last) both have "Jay" in their names.
I was talking to my husband about the name thing and I love his reaction, "I will never name a child after me." YAY!!
As for babies for us... I started my LAST pack of bith control this month (well, for next month). Time to start getting serious on baby making! Which also means getting serious on eating better and excercising more! I even went and paid a lot of money (for me) on fancy work out shoes and made a goal to walk home from work -3.1 miles- at least 2 times a week. I did it once and that was it. Now the rainy season is here and I haven't the motivation to do it.. until now. Baby #5's announcement and the announcement of a few other pregnancies from friends REALLY has me on baby overload. I think I am going at it in a selfish way though. I want the pregnancy since my one with Kira wasn't too.. wow. It was a secret for as long as my ex would keep it one (though of course I told my sister!). I missed my wedding/baby shower. I never got to decorate a nursery. I never got all of the praise and photos and all that jazz that comes with a pregnancy. I want to be celebrated too! We have wanted a child together for a few years now. I took this past year to take a break and just enjoy us. I have some severe depression issues to deal with, and those will get taken care of at a Dr appointment I have coming up (first one in YEARS!).
So, that's my thoughts while on my break... time to focus back on work!
9.26.2012
NOT me.
Life is a circle, I understand that part. I don't agree and like this circle, but it happens.
Example: When I was my sister's age I was in her same spot. Desperate to be loved, clinging to every guy that paid attention and doing whatever crazy idea they had (though mine didn't involve moving to Africa, just back to Kennewick). I can't voice my opinion outloud about this to her, because I'm supposed to be supportive and loving and not scared at all for her future.
This has been hard though. I KNOW this isn't the man my sister is supposed to marry, but that's what she is saying is going to happen- in Africa! I can't play the "you can't know right away who you are supposed to marry" because that happened with me and my husband. I KNEW the day I met him I wanted to be with him. Life has been up and down since then (mostly me up and down), but I have had that one support and I love it.
My dad was offered a job in CA working with the same company, but as a contractor. One of the first questions to my mom was, "When do you move.?" Well, she isn't moving! Just my dad will stay down there a few weeks out of the month and then travel back and forth. This is ideal for my mom. They have always had one of those together but not together marriages. I don't remember the last time they were ever affectionate with each other. I don't remember them saying "I love you" to each other. I recently learned from my dad that they only got married because it was convenient. Which explains a lot. I understand individuality in a marriage, but this is different. It's been bugging me and I had to say something about it.
This marriage is what my sister, the one going to Africa, wants. She wants the convenience of a husband but be able to be her own person. That doesn't work. I know that you don't have to be with your spouse 24/7, but you also can't be dependant on them. Does that make sense?
I like what I have. A balance. If I need a night just for me, I get it. This would have NEVER happened in my last marriage, but works for us. This Saturday I have errands to run and know that my husband doesn't want to go with me to the fabric store. So, I will send him off with some guy friends and I will go do my thing. My ex would have wanted to be next to me 24/7 for EVERYTHING. I wasn't able to be me and so I sank into depression and exploded and left.
I don't see this happening with my sister.*sigh*
Joys of being the big sister....
Example: When I was my sister's age I was in her same spot. Desperate to be loved, clinging to every guy that paid attention and doing whatever crazy idea they had (though mine didn't involve moving to Africa, just back to Kennewick). I can't voice my opinion outloud about this to her, because I'm supposed to be supportive and loving and not scared at all for her future.
This has been hard though. I KNOW this isn't the man my sister is supposed to marry, but that's what she is saying is going to happen- in Africa! I can't play the "you can't know right away who you are supposed to marry" because that happened with me and my husband. I KNEW the day I met him I wanted to be with him. Life has been up and down since then (mostly me up and down), but I have had that one support and I love it.
My dad was offered a job in CA working with the same company, but as a contractor. One of the first questions to my mom was, "When do you move.?" Well, she isn't moving! Just my dad will stay down there a few weeks out of the month and then travel back and forth. This is ideal for my mom. They have always had one of those together but not together marriages. I don't remember the last time they were ever affectionate with each other. I don't remember them saying "I love you" to each other. I recently learned from my dad that they only got married because it was convenient. Which explains a lot. I understand individuality in a marriage, but this is different. It's been bugging me and I had to say something about it.
This marriage is what my sister, the one going to Africa, wants. She wants the convenience of a husband but be able to be her own person. That doesn't work. I know that you don't have to be with your spouse 24/7, but you also can't be dependant on them. Does that make sense?
I like what I have. A balance. If I need a night just for me, I get it. This would have NEVER happened in my last marriage, but works for us. This Saturday I have errands to run and know that my husband doesn't want to go with me to the fabric store. So, I will send him off with some guy friends and I will go do my thing. My ex would have wanted to be next to me 24/7 for EVERYTHING. I wasn't able to be me and so I sank into depression and exploded and left.
I don't see this happening with my sister.*sigh*
Joys of being the big sister....
7.24.2012
Next Chapter...
On Saturday we FINALLY move. I know that it seems we move all of the time, but like I stated before- this one is a needed! We went to our new church group on Sunday and were welcomed so openly! We even have someone coming to bring us dinner Saturday night after we are settled in! That has NEVER happened before. People were sincerely wanting to get to know us and more about us. It was so lving and sincere!
We put down the neede money and just have to sign one more paper and we are in! We have so many friends volunteering to come help us! It is wonderful to know that in our time of need, there really are people out there to come and help. HUGE kudos to those helping us move out! Our place now is up on the 3rd floor and the new place is ground level. Thank goodness we don't own a lot and most of the boxes used to pack are pretty small and therefore pretty light.
We are pretty sure this is our last move to an apartment. Our goal is to enjoy this place and save, save, save for a HOUSE. Here it goes!
We put down the neede money and just have to sign one more paper and we are in! We have so many friends volunteering to come help us! It is wonderful to know that in our time of need, there really are people out there to come and help. HUGE kudos to those helping us move out! Our place now is up on the 3rd floor and the new place is ground level. Thank goodness we don't own a lot and most of the boxes used to pack are pretty small and therefore pretty light.
We are pretty sure this is our last move to an apartment. Our goal is to enjoy this place and save, save, save for a HOUSE. Here it goes!
Facebook IS NOT REAL LIFE!
For those that don't know already, not everyone on Facebook takes it seriously.
I will never, ever say and post what I am feeling 24 hours a day. This does have it's reprocussions, but I'm ok with that. Example: I am not a negative person, or at least I try not to be. My sister-in-law is and all, if not most, of her posts on Facebook reflect this. I decided that I had enough of the negative and "unfriended" her. HOLY HECK! I knew that there was going to be cross fire from this, so I also blocked her. This started a whirlwind of conversations and texts with my husband and his other sister. Bottom line, she is mad, her daughter is mad, husband was "unfriended" from her. Seriously?
I remove people from my friend list on Facebook at least once a week. It doesn't mean I'm not wanting to be a part of your life, I have just moved on in my life. I'm also VERY picky on whom I chose to see my personal information. I have personal information, personal photos and more.
So here I am blogging my sighs and grumbles.
Time for a happy blog post....
I will never, ever say and post what I am feeling 24 hours a day. This does have it's reprocussions, but I'm ok with that. Example: I am not a negative person, or at least I try not to be. My sister-in-law is and all, if not most, of her posts on Facebook reflect this. I decided that I had enough of the negative and "unfriended" her. HOLY HECK! I knew that there was going to be cross fire from this, so I also blocked her. This started a whirlwind of conversations and texts with my husband and his other sister. Bottom line, she is mad, her daughter is mad, husband was "unfriended" from her. Seriously?
I remove people from my friend list on Facebook at least once a week. It doesn't mean I'm not wanting to be a part of your life, I have just moved on in my life. I'm also VERY picky on whom I chose to see my personal information. I have personal information, personal photos and more.
So here I am blogging my sighs and grumbles.
Time for a happy blog post....
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