I've had one of those days that I just want to hit the fast forward and skip the rest of it. Actually, I'd like to fast forward the next 5 years of my life and skip through this stressful, sad part of life that I seem to be stuck in.
I'm still stuck in limbo with the decision to move to Portland. Talking with my sister over the past week and hearing about all the heartache she is going through, and then hearing that my mom is having health issues really has brought up my homesickness.
And I'm starting to wonder if my homesickness would exist if I knew that I was going to go back to visit my family in the near future. It seems that whenever we have a little extra money to spend on taking a trip back to Denver, the car needs repaired or another large bill comes up. I know that I've written about all of this before, but it is what is on my mind right now as I type it.
I know for a fact that I will be back in Denver in May for my baby sister's college graduation. But May seems so far away! There is so much going on that I feel that I am missing! Friends are celebrating milestones, family is having struggles... and I feel so far away from it all.
I'm feeling stuck. And when I feel stuck... I want to run. Not good.
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