Last night I had a dream about being in a field similar to this. In this dream I was walking down a path and remember a machine gun being fired towards me, but over my head. I was laying on the ground and the casings were all over the ground around me. I looked up for a second to see other people just walking along like nothing was happening. I realized this and stood up and as soon as I stood up, the gunfire stopped and I could see a man in a tree looking right at me. I turned and started walking back down the path and at that point woke up.
I was discussing this dream with Ben this morning and here is his interpretation: The path is like my path in life (obvious) and the fact that only I am being shot at is reference to the fact that at time I feel that I am the only one having difficulties while everyone else around me walks freely going on with their lives.
This has felt very true in the last few days. Our bank account has dwindled down to almost nothing due to bills and an unexpected car repair. We have 4 more days until we can put money in the bank and wondering if we will be ok living on $0.95 until then. I feel bad calling parents and asking if they can put $20 in our account for those few days, but I have a job where I now have to keep the girls entertained from 9am until the eldest goes to school at 12:45pm. My husband is sick, so coming over to my house is not an option. It takes gas to drive to parks (though there are plenty around here) and we are down to 3/4 tank.
We shall see how this goes! I know it will work out, and I have the faith required... it's just getting to be like this week after week and I am sick of just scraping by. This may require me to get a full-time job. But that is for another blog.
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